I do feel lonely most of the times..im also missing who i used to be…but i do terima yg yg this is road i choose when i was younger..y some ppl get selfish about their selves……i also want that and this but i know in what situation im in…..and just forget about what i want……………and i will find other ways to make myself happy……..i dont have friends around me…but i do think that family is more important than having fun with friends…thers is just so many things that i korbankan……but some ppl just dont understand…and at the end they blamed everything on me…..y couldnt you sacrifice the same thing that i did………..thats the most thing that make me so sad…….

Christina Perri - The Lonely (Official Lyric Video) (by lovemspenny)

Just something i really wanted to write and share with other ppl,

something i just realized and made me stop hoping…

When you always hoped that someone really cared and will always b there when you fall down..when you just wanted someone to stand up for you and always be behind you i whatever situation..even in that situation you were rite or wrong..Even you were always there for that someone…..its just nothing…..blank papers..never to believe if someone says there will always be there for you…..because words are just lies…..from now and then i will hold on that no one will be there for you even though they say it…….maybe there are just some ppl that are lucky and some that are just unlucky in this world…….

We might have all the hapiness in the world today,but who knows what will happen tomorrow…………

So sick with it! im so disgusted all the act ppl make………

Life is confusing when u just dont have the idea what ur thinking of….

I just feel so confused!Its making me tired……Why cant the pain of the past just go away…..always faking a smile makes me so tired….i want to turn back time…..right now!!!!!and i say right now!!!!!!!

Bought these black combs from Black Queen too…..trying to tease my hair…Hopefully,i learn how to do it…Love volumnmized hair!!

Just wanna try Loreal Studio Line Finishing Spray……

Bought new stuff to today….

✿ Earrings from Black Queen!!yeay!!Love them so much…..

✿ Whats wrong with me??

Im having like this I DONT UNDERSTAND mood swings…….! Lately,im having problems managing my own feelings…….Sometimes i can be SOO happy and a minute later i just feel like crying for NO reason….Maybe there are just things that i keep to myself for a long time….that i never speak out…I just fill like sleeping the whole day…There are things that are just playing in my mind….I dont even understand y……Im just worried that if this keep going im going to effect everyone around me..Sometimes i feel so scared for something that i know wont happen again..But,there is some feeling that i dont even understand playing in my mind….I AM ACTUALLY SCARED…..I just dont want everything to be taken away from me……!!see i dont even understand what im writing now……so confused………

To my sayang Mohd Fahmi Harith~plss read the lyrics…..

Where Did I Go Right?by Hilary Duff

I’m always too late, I see the train leaving
I’m always laughing, when its not cool to smile
I’m always aiming, but somehow keep missing 
So how did you get here, something is wrong

Where did I go right, how did I get you
How come all this blue sky is around me
and you found me
Where did I go right, how did I get you
I dont know how I did, but somehow now I do

I’m always driving, forget where I’m going
Should have turned left but I was singing some song and I
I am arriving as everyone’s leaving
But there you were waiting, something is wrong 

Where did I go right, how did I get you
How come all this blue sky is around me
and you found me
Where did I go right, how did I get you
I dont know how I did, but somehow now I do

Makes no sense to me, no it isnt clear 
but somehow your standing here
Something gets to me, it’s that nothing is wrong 

Where did I go right, how did I get you
How come all this blue sky is around me
and you found me
Where did I go right, how did I get you
I dont know how I did

Where did I go right, how did I get you
How come all this blue sky is around me
and you found me
Where did I go right, how did I get you
I dont know how I did, but somehow now I do
ohhhh some how now I do
Yeah yeah some how now I do……………